Friday, October 20, 2006

After eleven falls ...


Where do you go when I try to call you?
How could you not answer your phone?
Don’t you now how anxious I get for those minutes until I hear your voice …
- Hello
- Hey
- Is that you?
- Yeah, who else would it be? You can see my number!
- Yes I can ... I called earlier.
- I know ... I was screening.
- Again?
- Yeah, I was depressed ... I think
- Again?
- Yes.
- What happened?
- Nothing. Nothing happened ... silence ...
- Yeah I know
- Anyway, I wanted to read you this passage and see what you think..
- Go ahead;
I love it when you read for me. I don’t think there’s anything more intimate.
- I love it when you write for me but then you share it with everybody else...
Today I saw the hours again. Remember the line when she says people have to die for everybody else to realize how important life is?
- Yes I do.
- I thought that was something. I remember when he died.
- And?
- I don’t know … I felt that life got more meaningless back then … Not important.
- Is that the depression talking?
- No I’m not depressed anymore ... It rained... Fall ... You know? …
- Tell me about your day.
- Uneventful.
- Are you coming to see me?
- No. I’m too busy. Ok I’m not. I don’t want to see where you live.
- Why not? You’ve never visited me.
- I know. I don’t want this life you lead to become real for me. You live in my phone and in my heart and we’ll leave it at that.
- I know. I know how you think. I can read your mind, remember?
- And I read yours.
- I love you still
- I know. Goodnight my love

9 comments:

hashem said...

:)

Feras othman said...

is it that part ...about decidding ?! when u have to take the decission whether to do the first step ,action or not ,,,,

some relations seems so sweet full of softness and tenderness while its out of obligations and commetment but when u try to make it tangible real not virtual u might face hard issues but if love is there exist might clear obsessions,fears etc all

Ghassan said...

"...always the years between us, always the years. Always the love. Always the hours."
thanks for the transcript... being honest.

Mirvat said...

feras,
"some relations seems so sweet full of softness and tenderness while its out of obligations and commetment but when u try to make it tangible real not virtual u might face hard issues'
this is very interesting.. some relationship might appear to be only sweet and good in theory like you say and the reason might just be that they weren't fully explored.. yes i see what you mean.

gus, always honest my dear. thanks for the years and hoping for more

_z. said...

you killed tonight mirvat.
I loved the flow of your words telling a complicated and awkward story.

as always, amazing post.

Mirvat said...

thank you zouzou :)

gitanes legeres said...

i was sitting on the other bench..and it was lovely too..

Rewa said...

I remember this bench!!!! it's in AUB! thanks for the trip down memory lane Mirvat : )

Mirvat said...

didn't we all have a memory on a bench back then? :)