Tuesday, May 23, 2006

From Ibiza

I walked on the shore today
i watched the sunset at the casa del mar
then i went and sat down
i could never do that when i was younger
i could never just be alone
it seems that i mastered it now
being alone
it seems that you reach a point in time
when you have enough peace within yourself
to be able to face yourself
then i saw boys and girls passing by
the girls were beautiful
they had time to shine up
and the boys were proud
and i remember how we were, and they smiled at me
i remember the eyes through which, back then,
we looked at women like me
part of it was admiration to the mature age
mixed with feelings of non-relating
i remember the line from Kundera´s identity
¨men don´t turn to look at me anymore¨
and i get it
i finally understand
and i´m finally in peace with it
men don´t turn to look at me anymore
and i like it...

25 comments:

hashem said...

Ok....first good for you you are doing things we all dream to do, but why is this sad tone?
Mirvat, come back to nyc, or better, yalla 3ala Beirut lashouf!
love to hear from you.

laila said...

:)

The Eyewitness said...

"it seems that you reach a point in time
when you have enough peace within yourself
to be able to face yourself "
These are the words I liked most in the post. It is a great point, enjoy it.
"men don´t turn to look at me anymore
and i like it..."
If you really feel it wiht inner joy, then you have gone agreat deal on your personal inner freedom.
Enjoy your trip.

raed said...

I'm new to the "blog world" and i've been reading your posts daily... i love them, but mostly they're really sad.

... i don't have much to say except that i know the feeling, and wish you ALL THE BEST.

Mar said...

We're boys and girls too. We have all the time in the world to shine :)

Mirvat said...

i´m always accused of being sad. i´m not, really. i just sound sad when i write. hmmmmm...

hermione said...

sad is beautiful

Ghassan said...

shoo they don't turn anymore? FHASHAR!

Mar said...

I second what Ghassan said. I'm glad that it's an invalid accusation.

Mirvat said...

thank you hermione, glad you´re one of us :)
gus, they don´t. my femininity is tucked in professional wear now as opposed to the high heals and the shiny belts..
mar thank you :)

DA said...

I would look for you from this time on but not before..

Mirvat said...

not before..

Zee said...

Inner and outer observations going hand in hand as the adventure continues.
What more can you ask for ...

Anonymous said...

Hi ya Bannout, it's been a while..I love your blogs ... you're very inspiring, glad you love NYC... we should get in touch once you come back to the US, have fun meanwhile...Manuella
PS: I think you make both women and men's head turn my friend...

FZ said...

this is such a beautiful post, mirvat
i love the way you graze the poignant
moment of transformation (age, maturation) so lyrically
and i agree with DA

Anonymous said...

of course FASHAR..u r simply beatiful,inner and outer beauty

[ j i m m y ] said...

expressive and moving post mirvat, as usual.

enjoy your trip.

Mirvat said...

manuella hi 7abeebte keefek. we should definitely get back in touch and i do like NY very much. you should come visit me here. i hear from hashem that things are great with you and we´re both very happy and proud of you.

jimmy thank you and i am enjoying my trip and can´t wait to get back and tell you all about it

fz, thanks.
anonymous, thank you.

Haider Droubi said...

you know ..no need to comment how nice and expressive this article is..but ..what y said is so true ..that happens with anyone ..at least y r strong enough to accept it with a smile...then i am shocked...that those words come out of mirvat...maybe y dont turn the heads of stupid naive young men ..but i am damn sure y turn the life of many mature men that y meet...trust me 70% 0f attraction is based on the language of mind ...in this regard i think y speak 3 or 4 languages at least ...again i say FASHAR

Eve said...

very expressive. we'll be waiting for reports & pictures :)

Haider Droubi said...

and i think y are so beautiful(pls allow me to say so)...i guess those men are having some problems with the muscles of their head & neck….or they don’t even have a head to turn it ..how ‘poor’ they are !!!

Zee said...

I agree with Haider, "... attraction is based on the language of mind" - a peculiar blend of animal drive, soul and spirit. The blend in the mixer in young age is not of sophisticated aroma and ends usually up to be a lame milkshake. With time the ingredients actually improve in their complexity and supplement a "drink of attraction" that is much more powerful and reaches beyond the skin of sun tanned bikini outlines, flexing mussels and perfect teeth grinning at round asses and tight bouncing boobs ....

Ghassan said...

I think Mirvat was just having a kundera moment. hehehe...

Fouad said...

well, mirvat, I don't know about making heads turn, but it sure looks like, behind your screen, you're making quite a few hearts flutter.

nour said...

they don't...?
no worries.. i am sure there is one that makes all other men seem blind as Ella Fitzgerald sings..