Monday, January 15, 2007

3anjad de2 khil2na


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Not just sick and tired of the politicians and the fights and the despair and the keeping in mind anything but people’s businesses and lives and struggles, I’m sick and tired of me and you. I’m sick of the sound of my own complaints and opinions and ‘solutions’ and I’m sick of the arguments and the bickering and the weak spirit. Honestly I’m sick of Lebanese issues. I have been since I was born. I always defend my country and its people. I truly appreciate a lot about our culture. I love the spontaneity and the warmth and the passion. However, with spontaneity comes rudeness, with warmth come intensity and intrusiveness and lack of respect for personal space and personal lives and with passion come anger and fits and lack of tolerance. We’re sexist and racist and judgmental. We’re lazy and crazy and we’re always right and we’re all the victims of the world and history and society. The country is not good enough for us, the government is always the reason for all of our shortcomings and the world is against us. We also think we’re God’s gift to the earth wherever we are, we are competitive unkind and we act superior. Most of us are freeloaders and the rest complain. We all want to leave our country because it’s not good enough and when we do we all act superior wherever we are and want to go back, only then to act superior around our countrymen because we live abroad. A lot of us care about money and appearances more than decency and empathy and the real beauty of friendship and love and helping others. We are a country stuck at high school. A lot of our women are hysterical prima-donnas and a lot of the men chauvinistic aholes. Any 14 year old thinks he or she understands the world more than anyone else does. We all need to leave the country and exist on our own for a couple of years to get in touch with who we really are and to get a dose of reality. I’m sick of us. I’m sick of the tekbeer ras. De2 khil2i. I had missed Lebanon for the longest time but I have been reminded of all that lately and I think I’m good for a while.
De3an hal balad feekon we feena ...
sem7ouna ...
Chic chac choc ...
(pic. from downtownbeirut.com)

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

right on mirvat.. and excellent choice of song..

Anonymous said...

I feel just the same Mirvat.. few love poems and you will be OK :)
btw, love that song..keep on playing it :)

hashem said...

M,
I'll keepn seeing the beauty there....despite the ugliness, and non-tolerance.....despite the vulgarity and irresponsibility,
It's who were are....
thanx for the song, it meant alot to me :)

Maya@NYC said...

bravo!!! anjad 'refna!

Anonymous said...

well, I could give you a "charming" list for about every country I have been ...
Lebanon in that respect is not unique, at least that is my belief.

Mirvat said...

i'll keep trying to see the good side too :)

Rewa said...

Love the analogy with highschool, right on! : )

Rewa said...

oh, and the song. I miss that album.. thanks for the reminder!

Anonymous said...

Very True, for many Lebanese. We gotta try to get out of it. I am truly trying to do my part, but is everyone else doing the same? I hate the stereotype look I get whenever people, especially Arabs, know that I am Lebanese. it is a shame in some sense, the image we have.

Mirvat said...

rewa i love that album. it's what got me into fairuz when the same album seemed to get most people turned off

hamze, yeah i know.. i turn so defensive when anyone criticizes lebanese people but i know deep down that they're right..

kk said...

I love us!! We are one big contradiction.